re - chikaning the real thing
Feather and Ozzi,
I think my reluctance to have sex with her was on account of two things. I didn't feel that attracted to her. You might say that my sense of attraction wasn't powerful enough to overcome the guilt.
But the second thing -- and I don't want to sound like a moralist -- is that I just didn't feel comfortable thinking how I'd feel after having sex. Somehow, I have rationalized consensual chikaning as a fun activity that doesn't really amount to cheating on my wife -- similar to cybersex. But going any further would really mean breaking her trust, and I simply can't bring myself to doing that. However, Ozzi may be right -- if I continue on this track, I'm going to feel less and less guilty about having sex with somebody outside marriage. That's precisely why I'd like to control my chikaning and stop doing it eventually.
Aise
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