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Re: AzN Style - The meaning of this board

Thanks for your words Style. Those who read the board regularly know that this has been my intent ever since the beginning of the year. I had planned to give it up at the end of 2002 actually. But then, right around that time, I discovered Ayashi BBS by a total fluke chance. I had planned to quit . . . but destiny called . . . destiny called, and I could not do it. This period in my chikan life had to be fulfilled.

The thing is, my discovery of Ayashi BBS was probably the best thing that ever happened to me in terms of preparing me to quit. I know I have said many times before that the board was not a place for people who were trying to quit, but . . . but . . . maybe I was wrong. I guess it's all in how each person who is wanting to quit uses the board, and how that use affects that particular individual.

If a person is sincere in their belief that using the board in a certain kind of way will help them quit, and if they stick to it, then perhaps the board can be the right place for somebody wanting to stop. I don't know. It's a complicated thing. Although, I can never be convinced that a regular helping of hot stories from true-to-life chikans can ultimately lead to the best results :-)

But you see, in my case, the board has allowed me to think, feel, be, write, and act out as a chikan . . . anytime I wanted to . . . 24/7 . . . 7 days a week . . . all day all the time if I wanted to. Like a chikan cable TV channel! Hahaha! It was this . . . this "purge" that was the key for me. If I hadn't found this outlet, I don't think I ever, ever would have had a real chance at quitting.

It's something that I can't explain. It just is . . . it's what this board has done for me. It's allowed me to acknowledge fully that I have been a chikan. And now, it's about to set me free. That's a part of what goes to the very core of why I've been here in this very forum. I can't explain how or why. All I know is that it's exactly what I needed if I was going to have a successful chance to quit. Acknowledge it . . . then let it go.

I have seen many good people here take on and deal with the struggle of quitting. People such as Gentlebrush, Nanbread, and Carlos . . . Stath, who we have not heard from in a long, long time. Many, many others. When Punjabi Butt Humper announced "I quit", I really had to take note. I mean, I don't "know" PBH in the typical kind of way, but something tells me that if anybody can do it, he can. The great Punjabi Butt Humper is quitting. This is a sign too that it's time for Black Shogun as well. The time draws nigh.

Black Shogun

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